Nother Beginning

I want just one day.
Like a fading film of smiles and beaches, draped in white and wind.
So light.
So surreal.
So far away ...

Reality is a kick in the head.
I was lying when I said I felt ok.
I was lying when I said I was fine.

I close my eyes.
You see me blink.
Then it's over.
The day is gone.
Maybe tomorrow, I say to myself.
And I blink.

I see sunshine and water.
I feel warm and alive.
I can move.

You see me sleep.
It would bring me relief if I could forget today or if I had hope for tomorrow.

© S. Amanda Clevinger